My Life

Scones Conundrum

Me: I should really do my homework
Me: Well, I'll just get on scones, just for a little
Me: and then do my homework
Me: and then go to bed niiiiiiice and early!
Me 5 hours later: Uh.... Shit. Fail.

ations

In the last few weeks, I've been noticing (or have had my attention brought to) how much I am still a small child. I'm still caught up in myself. I still want to be like my friends, I'm still self conscious. All these things I thought I had conquered for the most part are looming back onto the horizon and presenting themselves to me again, saying, "You thought you were done with us! Ha ha!"
I'm not exactly upset about it. Frustrated, more like, because I fancied myself to be good at self-analysis, and now I'm realizing how unobservant I've been.
So yes, I'm not moping about it. It's just what's been going on in my life lately.



I'm being a kiwi tomorrow.
I am very excited.

Haven't posted in a while...

I also haven't made a video in a while. Feh.
I'm starting to apply to colleges and try to come up with other options. Here are the things I'm thinking about that aren't acting colleges:
After last year, I really don't want to stray from acting, but I'm seriously considering culinary school. I also am thinking about just moving to LA. Since what I really want to do is voice cartoons, maybe I should just jump in, you know? (Though this would make a certain friend of mine very angry if I moved there once she went to college). I've also thought about moving back to New York and just trying to do stuff. (Not like I've run either of these past my mom...) Also, DePaul has a decent music school, so I'm planning on auditioning for voice. Damn this cut system. I have to start finding monologues and writing essays and filling out applications and asking for recommendation letters and getting transcripts OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD

I need a shower.

Old Footage

Yes. Here it is. Made public for my blog readers.




Here's the intro: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_gN3N_a9M0Y

Also, you all should check out my 'Nana Bread Music Video if you haven't already (it's on the Zkonz Top 40)



Bai!

In the mood

I've been wanting to get into poetry lately, but I'm not sure who to peruse. Who do you like, and what of theirs, if anything specific?

MY DAY

I was SO TIRED yesterday. So tired that I kept getting nauseous. Like REALLY nauseous. Has that ever happened to you? Wtf! I went to sleep around 5:30 and got up at 7:50. That was bad news. Last night, though, I went to sleep at midnight and woke up at 11:30. Yeah, bitches.
However, I will not deny that I was woken up no less than 7 times by my roommate. In the course of about an hour.
Anyway, I am going to buy some groceries... and probably get started on writing my songs for magpral because that jerk/friend, Gabby, is punishing me by making me write a song for every day I post this week. And I'm posting Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. We shall see how that goes.
Anywhoo, I'm not called 'til FIVE, so HUZZAH FOR ME.

One day, I will have time to make a real video for my main channel. And have another epic scones night.
I go home in a little more than a month. Woooo


Lookz i'ma JEDI

3AM

It is 3 in the friggin AM and I have to write this paper and I don't even have word one. I did some brainstorming, but that is the extent of my preparation. I haven't even read the last chapter and a half of the book we're supposed to allude to. Also, it is fuckin' cold.
I have to get up in 5 hours. Luckily, it's restorative yoga tomorrow, and I'm watching autodramas in Acting. I think tomorrow should be good until I try to crash during the show.



How do I know I have procrastinated too much? I find myself watching Vanessa Hudgens music videos. Wtf.

I wish I liked somebody. Can anybody find meeeee somebody to looooooove?

Yesterday

When I was leaving Voice and Speech yesterday, we were all gathering our stuff from the closet, and I saw a MetroCard in the mesh pocket of someone's backpack. I got such a shot in the heart. I can't even explain it. It was just this feeling that hit me square in the chest. And I said, "Whose MetroCard is that?" One of my friends claimed it and asked why. And the first thing that came out of my mouth was that "It made me homesick".
I'm not even from New York! I miss it so much, though.

I was going to write a post

And then I forgot what it was supposed to be about

Love

What better way to spend a Saturday night than with scones?

P.S.

Yeah, I also have to make time for magpral. Yeah, suck levels, in terms of me, have been high on that channel. Still no idea what I'm going to talk about. NOT SCHOOL! I've done enough of that.
I'm a little sad that I have all this extra time now, but I can't do Kayley's video, but I think it's for the best that I use the time for other stuff. But still :(

I'm ready for lunch.
I have linty wooly stuff all over my shirt from the yoga blankets. Yum.

WOW

Hi

I'm not expecting anyone to read any or (certainly not) all of this, but here it is anyway.

I really wanted to make a procrastinatory blog post last night, but I was so short on time, I didn't even have time to procrastinate. I mean, really.
I miss YouTube. I miss being able to spend hours on a video. I have been so busy lately, and I wish I had more time to talk to Gabby and the scones. Here's why I've been busy:

Well, I've been busy since day one. I mean, I'm in a conservatory. Go fig.
But this week has been INTENSE, and the third day has only just started. Tues is one of my "days off" (from classes), and yesterday I felt like I hadn't been to classes in weeks because I've been doing so much.
First of all, it's Writing week in HDL, which is a hybrid history-writing class. We have our first essay, so I had to have a draft of that in today.
Tech week started on Monday, so that's fun. A typical schedule for me is classes from 8:30 to 3:40 (with an hour lunch break), and then go to the bus stop at 4:45 and get back from tech at 11:15ish. So on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I literally have two hours free in my day to eat lunch, do homework, breathe. I couldn't even take a shower last night.
Then, on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I have to spend as much time as possible on my Autodrama, which is a performance piece, for my acting class. It's our midterm, so it's a big deal. I spent hours on it yesterday, and I might be a quarter of the way done. That's why the cancelled acting class is great: I have from 12:50 to 4:45 to eat lunch and work on my Autodrama or my essay.
This isn't even one of those techs where I can work on stuff backstage- I do stuff the ENTIRE TIME. I'm props master, as well as Assistant Stage Manager, as well as onstage crew. It really is a blast and takes my mind off of everything else, but it's just a lot. Once this week is over, things will quiet down a little, since the Autodrama will be out of the way, my essay gets turned in Monday, and we start performances on Monday as well.


How do I have time to type all of this? My Voice and Speech class got separated into two groups for today, and I'm the second one, so I go up at 12:05. This is a very good day. I need down time like no other. This is also one of the first days that I've felt sleep deprived. Since I care about the work I'm doing, I normally organize myself pretty well to get in 8 hours, sometimes more, but ... Yeah, I'm frazzled.

I can already feel where I'm going to be sore from yoga. I like being sore, though.
We're working on inversions, so we're upside-down a lot.


Also, in reference to this long entry, I haven't had a chance to write in my written journal, so I think I have to turn to typing them out. So maybe this is more for me than for you.

Shit, man. This is long.

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